All work and No sleep

makes Nancy a very cranky girl. My brain has been going nuts this week. I have been thinking about my composition so much lately, that I can't stop thinking about passages, new ideas, old ideas, wrong things, right things, good things, and bad things, over, over, over, and over again. After my last few failed attempts, I have been a bit discouraged lately. I have had to scrap nearly a hundred measures worth of stuff. Sucks balls. So this week, I tried to think, create, and be inspired. Of course, all of this builds up during the days, and then during the nights, I can't sleep. The thinking continues, and it literally takes me 2-3 hours of lying in bed to fall asleep. 1am, 2am, 3am...... wake up at 6am, 7am, 8am..... rinse, repeat.

Tired, frustrated, almost defeated. ALMOST, but not quite. I did get a bright idea, so we'll see if it'll all pay off. I am going to the Arcade Fire show, so maybe that will help me get out of this funky business. UGHUGHUGH.... I need to call Pigpen to help cheer me up.

Well, it's 12:12am now. I thought I would pass out earlier since I only had a few hours sleep last night. I guess that wasn't the case. Let's see how long this miserable marathon will last.