Never Enough

Today is the last day of Spring Break. I go back to school tomorrow, and my first class is with Dr. Stein. I can't say that I was very productive (with composition) during this break. I have had this incredible urge to just get the hell away from here, and it didn't happen during this break. So, my camping, weekend getaway, coastal tour, SoCal visit ideas were all a bust. Instead, I did....

Monday: spent the day with a friend and her 3 month old that were visiting.
Tuesday: Dentist, Work
Wednesday: Work
Thursday: Work
Friday: spent day with Isa and cousin to help w/move
Saturday: Work, clean, groceries, composed
Sunday: run more errands to tie up loose ends, help cousin

I really need to get AWAY. I need to clear my head so that I can focus on some important things right now. There's a lot of clutter in my head and unfortunately, people are cluttering it even more. It's hermit time for Nancy again. I go through these phases where I can't deal with other people and their problems, and I just need to hermit out for a while. More unfortunately, I like helping people and try to be a good listener, but most times, it just doesn't come back around for me. Which is fine, dandy, and okay, but I just need a break. It can't be just a day off. I have to get away from the AREA. I love camping because I can be outdoors, be dirty, not care about how things are or how they should be, and get some fucking peace and quiet. Three days? two days? anything.

So Spring Break, it's just never enough time. I looked forward to you all Winter quarter, and you teased me. You made me believe that I would get away and be refreshed. Instead, you pulled the rug out beneath me and I hit my head hard. Ow. I rub my head. And now I go back with a bump on my head and a bruise on my knee.

Summer. Glorious summer.