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Along with a million other people, I decided to join a gym for 2007. How cliche is this? haha.... well, i really need to make this damn resolution stick, dammit! so, i signed up for 12 sessions with a personal trainer so that I wouldn't give up so easily this time. LET ME TELL YOU..... she kicks my ass in gear so hard, that saying that I feel like I got hit by a truck is merciful! ow, ow, ow... But alas, this is something that I need. Yes, yes, yes.... it is something that I need.

School is a little overwhelming this quarter. (trying to be polite.) I added an evening class that I surprisingly enjoy, so I do not mind that. It's my conducting class that I want to get out of oh-so-desperately! I do not mind the work, (even though it is taking up more time that I had hoped for, and wish I could just concentrate on my thesis), it's that I really do not like it!!! I am not sure if this is very bad for me to say being in my field, but I can't help it. I admit it, I give up, I DON't LIKE iT!! It is unfortunate because I like the teacher, know that he is very good, and should feel good that I am learning from such a great teacher. But seriously folks, not fun for me. I know, I'm terrible.... call me names, I don't give a flying fuck. I just hate it. Doesn't help that my learning disabilities (which I thought were in the past... that is, until this course), is making it a more arduous process. Knowing now how much more work I will need to put in compared to the average student is driving me bonkers. (hmm... that there folks, was just a passive-aggressive confession. oh well, who reads this thing anyway.) Bah. Well, I've come this far without mentioning it, so whatever. I'll just bear with the fucking thing. Once again, BAH, BAH, BAH!!!

My goodness, what a rant. On a good note, the stuff I came up with during winter break for my composition was crap. But, actually knowing that it was crap confirms my own hesitations toward it. I can move on, fix it, and get back on track. I was a bit derailed during that break. Always after my lesson, I am on this incredible high and feel so inspired. Let's try and avoid major crashes, shall we? Phew!