here goes

i don't think i have ever reflected on any year as much as i have for this one. 2006 has been a year for beginnings and endings for me. as painful as some of the events were, i look forward to 2007 as a stronger person. these past couple days especially, have opened my eyes to a lot of bull shit that i will not allow this year. it really is too bad that sometimes a tragedy is what makes people wake up. and fucking hell, why does it have to be so tragic.

the biggest realization for me this past year, was the fact that i acknowledged that i am not a verbal person. i am not a smooth talker, a socialite, nor can i keep up many conversations. and nor do i care anymore. i am the ultimate bumbling bee. but now, it doesn't bother me because i realize that i communicate better in writing, (in both forms). this may be a trait that seems a bit small and trivial, but it really did open a shit load of a can of worms for me. so for 2007? it will be exciting to see how it goes. as sad as this year may have ended, it was the ultimate punch in the face that was highly overdue.

so here goes:

+ for B: keep on rockin'.
+ for D: don't worry, you'll find it.
+ for I : you don't know it yet, but you're a miracle.
+ for me: bzzzzzzzzzz............